LEAVE IT OUTSIDE

As of late I find myself in a deep walk with my grief. A grief so severe blood boiling in my limbs, body begging and my mind pleading with the spirit.

How could this have become my existence?

As I look as far back as possible, I think of all the times prior that I was very mistaken. Who am I to think I foster any control in this life? This story, my story like other stories have already been written. My story, a world now without my true love.

So, I did the only thing I knew that would bring me peace and fill me. Like so many times before, I walked it off. I walked off the tears, the anger, the angst, the unbearable, marching slowly, steadily and merciful into the trees. Day after day, week after week, month after month.

Life had become beautiful and broken…bent and twisted! I had a keen sense of living in a parallel universe of sorts. Walking, thinking, partaking in short assignments, crappy first drafts then finding support among these trees.

I believed in them and as I walked, I heard them speak words to me, a rousing pep talk given so I could keep going. One slow steady step in front of another, over and over until I walked it off.

Life as we know it is guaranteed to change which can be beautiful, ugly or both! However, nature has been a great teacher and support in helping me see that even in the most difficult moments when the leaves are not ready to fall as the wind hits them they rebel and begin to make beautiful music.

Nature is a proven healer. She levels the field for us to gain our bearings. If you are watching (listening) she shows you it will be ok eventually. She gives you hope in everything you can see, smell and touch. She graciously accepts your grief to allow you to fill up with new observations, ideas, visions and teaches you how to live beyond the grief.

So, in the meanwhile, while the baker makes the donuts, you must go get some fresh air. You must get out of your own way. Open your consciousness, receive the blessings to come forth and leave it all outside!